Some days still hurt, but I refuse to let fear have the final word.

Friend,

I have been wrestling in my heart.

I know God is working all things for good. I believe that. I have seen His faithfulness too many times to deny it. And still, some days hurt.

Some days the weight feels loud. Some days the questions come fast. Some days I can feel myself starting to spiral into the what ifs, into fear, into the need to control outcomes that were never mine to carry.

And if I am honest, part of me has asked, What is God doing? Why does this still hurt? If I am still going to feel the ache, then what does it mean to come to Him for rest?

I have been sitting with that, and I do not think rest means life stops hurting. I think it means I have somewhere to bring the hurt. I think it means the battle may still be happening, but I do not have to fight it without refuge.

So today, while the ache is still real, I am making a decision. I refuse to worry. I refuse to obsess over outcomes that belong to God. I refuse to let the schemes of the enemy distract me from what the Lord is doing right in front of me. I refuse to let what if rob me of the blessings of right now.

So I stand.

I may be bloody when I stand. I may be afraid when I stand. I may feel weak when I stand. But I will stand anyway.

Fear has to bow at the name of Jesus. Worry has to bow at the name of Jesus. Obsessing has to bow at the name of Jesus.

And even before peace catches up with my feelings, I will stand in faith.

I will keep standing until peace catches up with my faith.

I’m attaching the song that has been helping me stand in this season. If you listen, tell me what line hit you, or just drop one word for what you’re standing through right now. 🤍